On April 12th, I took my professional engineering exam.
The Good: I got my results back.
The Bad: I failed.
The Ugly: I'm torn. I'm not upset (I'm actually surprised I didn't cry); what's do is done I keep telling myself. I just feel utterly defeated. I studied close to three months for the exam and devoted myself entirely. For what?
In the past several months I've come a lot farther than I was. I've learned items that will benefit my current position as well as that will be useful when I take the test again, but really that's just what I'm telling myself to cushion the blow. Although my mind is also thinking, great now I'll spend half a year studying for this damn test. In the end I know it's beneficial, professionally, personally and financially, but getting to the light at the end of the tunnel, which has now doubled in length, is discouraging.
The test is offered every April and October. My review course I took offers a guarantee, as long as I take the test this Fall or April 2014, I can retake the course for free. Knowing I studied almost three months in the winter and didn't pass, there's no way in hell I plan on taking the test in the fall. So, I'll give myself a break and ramp up again next January.